That saying is one of the most annoying, frustrating, and emotional statements that can ever be made to someone like me, or as I've learned, from almost anyone who is dealing with a chronic illness. What needs to be understood is that my health can change on a dime. I can feel fine at 3pm on Friday but by 8pm on Friday, I can be nauseous, sick to my stomach with significant abdominal pain, or in the case of what I'm dealing with now, hands that won't close, and knees that won't stop buckling when I try to walk.
This causes emotional strife for me. What I mean is, when I'm not feeling well, but two hours previously felt great and committed to something, it is very guilty feeling for me to call that person and let them know that I can no longer attend. While my friends are understanding, and always have been which is why you are my friends, I will always have the guilty feeling which probably doesn't help not feeling well :) It's all a catch 22.
But there are so many people out there who don't have the friends I have who have to deal with responses like, are you sure you don't feel good? Are you sure it isn't all in your head? You don't look sick? How can you have a digestive disorder and be the weight you are ? YADA YADA YADA, and for that, I am grateful for every single one of you. I can deal with feeling guilty when I don't need to, but I would have a harder time dealing with finding more spectacular friends than the ones I have now !!!!
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